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Glee 1x13 Finale Picspam!

Sat, 19 Dec 2009 01:19:54 GMT

HAAAAY. I'm finally posting it, lol. :3 Hope you guys enjoy it.

Includes only my favorite parts, which is almost all of them. *_*

>> Y'know, I'm surprised Rachel didn't figure it out earlier!
>> Because of the "KICK THE RACHEL" vibe I've been getting from the rest of the Gleeks in the previous episodes, I was pretty peeved with them in the beginning of this eppy too. I mean, I understand why they want to keep it from Rachel (she'll go running to to Finn first chance she gets), but c'mon, Mercedes told EVERYONE ELSE a secret that wasn't hers. It just felt sad that, once again, Rachel is an outsider to their club. I thought that of all people, they would know what it felt like to be excluded.
>> I love Quinn's "STFU" face, lolol.
>> Kurt's change from "WTF are you smoking" face to his "HOLY SHIT, WE ARE DOOMED" smile was hilarious.

>> One of my favorite scenes! I love that Rachel gave Mercedes her due props. :3 Despite Rachel always wanting the spotlight, she's not as unwilling to give it up as she used to - for her friends and to keep the club together.

AWWWWW. ♥♥

>> Poor, poor Finn. ): But Puck's kinda right... I can't believe he bought Quinn's story, lol. XD
>> I had a hard time liking Quinn b/c of what she did, but after this episode, I instantly liked her again. I mean, look at her! She just looks so cute and heartbroken. I'm a sucker for pretty people crying.
>> Rachel shouldn't have been the one to tell Finn. I knew that Quinn wouldn't, but I wanted Puck to tell his best friend.

>>...But it's not like she wasn't extremely regretful afterwards. I think Quinn took the mature approach by not lashing out at Rachel. And I'm happy Rachel realized her mistake and apologized.
>> Ah, Puck. He so badly wants to be the baby daddy, but he's just not ready to be responsible yet. Quinn knows that.

>> ROFL. I can't believe they had the nerve to use wheelchairs too, lol.
>> Artie's frowny face is so cute.

AKA "Will gets OWNED" scene.

LOL. Oh, the show is so cracky. They have officially given us Will/Sue. XD

LOL. I know Will is so pissed right here, but this scene is just too cute. Sue definitely knows how to push all the right buttons.

Awww. Another Will/Finn talk. :] I like how Will naturally sees Finn as the leader and trusts him to do the right thing.

"You forgot your keys..."
"No, I didn't."

XD C-CUTE.

AKA the "EMMA OWNS SO HARD" scene. ♥♥ She is so cute and fierce at the same time in this scene.

>> When Rachel tells Santana that she believes her = ♥♥
>> Kurt's face lighting up when he sees Finn = ♥♥

This scene strikes me as a little odd because Puck seems more intelligent than that. I mean, why on EARTH would he think that Finn would be "cool" with him now? Yeah, I don't know, either.

They are so cute together. *__*

A mini Rachel picspam because she just rocked this performance, UNF. ♥ I-I'm kind of in love with Lea Michele and her character, lolol.

>> Will and Emma on the phone with each other so that he can hear everything = ♥♥. S-SO cute.
>> Will is just so proud of his kids, awww. *TEARS*
>> I like their outfits. :3

I thought Finn looked so hot this episode. THAT IS RARE, PEOPLE. I rarely think he's hot. BUT HE TOTALLY BROUGHT SEXY BACK IN THIS PERFORMANCE.

HAHA I'M SORRY I SHIP THEM OK. XD

Ah... This scene was just so sad. I'm not gonna lie, I'm in the minority when I say that I don't want Will to leave his wife. ;~;

"DESTINATION: HORROR." OMG ILU SUE. PLEASE BRING IT.

>> Love that Artie is presenting the trophy. That was a sweet touch.
>> Haha, I love how the performance is a collection of all their previous ones. Very fun to watch. ♥♥

DEAR HEAVENS, I ALREADY MISS THIS SHOW. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO WAIT NOW?! D:

I hope you guys enjoyed the picspam! ♥♥ Thanks for joining me!

Some Christmas music.

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 02:32:52 GMT

1. Lenka - All My Bells Are Ringing
2.Straight No Chaser - Jingle Bell Rock
3. Fleet Foxes - White Winter Hymnal
4. Glee Cast - Last Christmas
5. Death Cab for Cutie - Christmas (Baby, Please Come Home)
6. Sara Barielles & Ingrid Michaelson - Winter Song
7. Yuki Kajiura - Winter
8. Ron Sexsmith - Maybe This Christmas
9. Kate Havenvik - Winter Wonderland
10.Kristen Chenoweth - Do You Hear What I hear?

>> Notes: I tried picking both happy and upbeat songs (first half of the mix) and slower, nostalgic songs (last half.) Enjoy, everyone. I usually listen to Christmas songs for the whole month of december (shuttupi'msentimental), but you have a couple of weeks left! ♥

>> Let me know if you want the zip or if any of the links are broken/doesn't work. Thanks!

♫ Fanmix - Merlin - "Legends"

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 11:43:58 GMT

I can't believe my first post in my new icon journal is not of icons but of a fanmix! :] Oh well! Happy first post, YAY!

This fanmix was requested by the wonderful sakuraberries. I hope you enjoy it, and I hope I captured the "epic-ness" that is Merlin. XD She requested that I do a mix that is similar to Merlin's soundtrack, so I created an instrumental mix that, hopefully, captures the mood of the show. ♥

HERE.

[fanmix] request + "Arkham Asylum"

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 08:17:25 GMT

A brilliant request by the lovely astronomia.

1. David Bowie - All The Madmen
Day after day
They send my friends away
To mansions cold and grey
To the far side of town
Where the thin men stalk the streets
While the sane stay underground.

2. Velvet Revolver - Psycho Killer
Psycho killer,
Quest que cest
Fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa far better
Run run run run run run run away
Psycho killer
Quest que cest
Fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa fa far better
Run run run run run run run away.

3. Ryan Adams - Arkham Asylum
Tree tops have all gone black from all the rushing of the bats
That scramble up in the leaves -- the night is dawning
And vengeance is gonna come for that Joker that done her wrong
And like a cat on a canary -- you're Bruce Wayne....

And Arkham Asylum has walls to keep us safe
Life just ain't designed to prevent every mistake
And every lock has its key and nobody ever really sleeps.

4. Alice Cooper - Inmates (We're All Crazy Here)
And don't think we're trying to be bad
All the innocent crime seemed alright at the time
Not necessarily mad not necessarily mad
We watch every day for the bus
And the driver would say
"That's where lunatics stay"
I wonder if he's talking about us.

5. Ozzy Osbourne - Crazy Train
All aboard! Ha ha ha ha ha ha haaaa!

Mental wounds still screaming
Driving me insane
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train
I'm going off the rails on a crazy train.

6. Arkham Asylum Theme (actually, it's the Max Payne 2 theme song, lol.)
Instrumental.

7. Wolfmother - The Joker and the Thief
I said the joker is a wanted man,
He makes his way all across the land,
See him sifting through the sand...

Always laughing in the midst of power,
Always living in the final hour,
There is always sweet in the sour.

8. Metric - Monster Hospital
Monster Hospital, can you please release me?
You hold my hands down, I've been bad.
You hold my arms down, I've been bad.
I've been bad, I've been bad.

9. Suicidal Tendencies - Institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy
You're driving me crazy.

10. Dresden Dolls - Girl Anachronism
And you can tell
From the state of my room
That they let me out too soon
And the pills that i ate
Came a couple years too late
And I've got some issues to work through.

DOWNLOAD WHOLE FANMIX HERE.

Take, comment, and let me know if you need the individual songs. Enjoy! ♥

"Dangerous Ladies" - Avatar - Sokka/Suki

Sat, 17 Oct 2009 19:47:51 GMT

Title: Dangerous Ladies
Arthur: indefiance
Word count: 158
Spoilers: none.
Rating: G
Notes: written for the_firefly
Summary: Sokka has a way to deal with dangerous ladies...

Sokka found himself running for his life.

A katana whizzed by his ear, nearly grazing it. "H-hey, watch it!" He cried, only to be met by a giggle.

"I thought we promised not to go easy on each other?" Suki asked, smiling sweetly.

"Is not killing each other also in that clause?" Sokka returned her katana, but was quickly met by a lethal fan, aimed at his head.

"I don't believe so!" She said, and then lunged for his midsection.

Sokka blocked it effortlessly--years of training proved him to be a formidable opponent. He redirected Suki's force, enough to knock her down, but caught her just before she hit the mat.

Before she could attack him, Sokka gave her a quick kiss on the forehead and jumped away.

"You're a sneaky one," Suki said, trying to sound indignant, but a blushing smile betrayed her.

"Have to be," Sokka replied cheekily, "Especially if I'm dealing with dangerous ladies."

"No More Apologies" - Glee - Will + Rachel

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 19:56:04 GMT

Title: No More Apologies
Arthur: indefiance
Word count: 557
Spoilers: 1x01 - 1x05 to be safe.
Rating: G, since this one's platonic.
Characters: Will, Rachel
Notes: written for commen_sense
Summary: Will welcomes Rachel back into Glee club and apologizes for being so hard on her. Rachel finally puts aside her pride and realizes that friends are important, even to stars like her.

Will realized that he had been seeking out Rachel a lot lately, but he reasoned that it was circumstances that brought him to her each time, nothing else. Though, he did notice a general pattern in their meetings: she was always unhappy. Will wanted to change that. He was happy that she was back in Glee club and grateful that she had saved their butts the night before. For once, this meeting wasn't going to be about how Glee club was failing her.

Will entered the school's small dance studio, and found Rachel doing some stretches at the barre.

"Hey," He said. "I'm not interrupting, am I?"

Rachel finished her grand plie, and turned to him with a smile. There was uncertainty in that smile, Will noticed. She was a little nervous after how tense it had been between them. Despite having bravado and pretending to be confident all the time, Rachel Berry sometimes slipped. Behind her star-quality smiles, Will detected a vulnerability.

"No, of course not. What's up, Mr. Schu?" She asked. Her arm gracefully rose above her head as she delicately rose to stand on her tippy toes. Her mask of confidence was secure now.

"I wanted to say that I'm happy you're back," Will said. "The whole club missed you."

Rachel stopped mid-demi plie to stare at him questioningly, almost hopefully.

"Really?" She looked away, embarrassed. "How do you know? Did fi--Did anyone say anything?"

"Everyone wanted you back, Rachel." Will reassured her.

"Even you?" She asked, her voice small.

It pained him that she thought he disliked her in some way, even when he told her that he was her biggest fan.

"Maybe me most of all." He said. "I'm sorry I was so hard on you."

Rachel smiled. "I'm glad to be back. It's tough being a star, you know," She said, trying to sound flippant. "Without friends, that is."

She hesitated a little before adding, "And I'm sorry, too. I shouldn't have acted like such a diva."

"Everyone was behind you, though, Rachel." Will said, shaking his head. "You are our best singer, and everyone knows that."

"It's good to have the support," She said. "It feels good. When I was by myself in the cabaret, even as the star, I…I felt like I had no one."

"You have to have support somewhere, right? Even the biggest stars need their support." Will told her gently. This was the lesson he had wanted for her all along.

Will continued, "And I'm sorry that you can't be the star all the time, but Glee club is about everyone being a star. You have to support them as much as they support you."

Rachel took a deep breath, as if she was about to do something incredibly difficult. "I think I can handle that for now." Then, she gave him a big smile. "So, let's start over, Mr. Schu. No more apologies." She held out a hand.

Will took her hand in his, and saw that it was warm and strong, much like Rachel herself. She was a strong girl, and had put up a fight until the very end. Will had no doubt that she could handle anything, especially when it came towards her passion for singing, but sometimes even the strong needed friends. He believed that was the real reason why Rachel came back to Glee club. "Welcome back, Rachel. I'll see you at rehearsal tomorrow?"

"I'll be there." Rachel answered.

~End~

"Not Jealous" - Glee - Quinn, Rachel/Finn

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 06:11:48 GMT

Title: Not Jealous
Words: 610
Spoilers: 1x01 - 1x03 (just to be safe.)
Rating: PG
Character/Pairings: Quinn, Rachel/Finn
Author's Notes: I wanted to write something for Quinn to understand her character better, and this was the product. Hope you guys enjoy it!

Sometimes, Quinn thinks she's jealous.

But she's not: she's head cheerleader and head of the celibacy club; she's talented, beautiful, and popular; and she has Finn. Quinn has everything Rachel Berry doesn't have, everything Rachel Berry wants, and with malicious resolve, Quinn decides that she has everything Rachel Berry will never have.

She's not jealous. Jealousy is a foreign concept to Quinn Fabray.

Quinn smiles her usual secretive, confident smile, and puts her backpack down on a chair. She strolls leisurely over to Finn, placing a small, chaste kiss on his cheek. He grins at her, looks at her lustfully like he always does. Men are like dogs; the more you dangle the treat, the more they pant, and the easier it is to train them.

She crosses her arms primly over her chest, and looks at Mr. Schuester as he is talking. He doesn't look it, but underneath the unassuming smile and boring shirt-and-ties, Will Schuester is talented man.

"Okay," Mr. Schuester says, "Let's go over some warm ups."

Without missing a beat, the others go through a series of scales and simple songs, following the piano effortlessly. She joins in half-heartedly, looking at Finn as she does so. To her surprise, he is very much into it. So into it, in fact, that he's closing his eyes and smiling. Smiling! He only smiles like that whenever she lets him put a hand on her breast--over the shirt, not under.

"Now, let's get serious," Mr. Schuester says after their warm ups. He looks at Rachel and nods. A mutual understanding transpires between the two, and Quinn finds herself inexplicably annoyed.

The social outcast smiles and takes a deep breath, and Quinn sees for the first time why Glee club is so important to someone like Rachel. Everyone's eyes are on her. Everyone is listening to her. For the first time, nobody pays any attention to Quinn Fabray. She continues watching as Rachel sings her heart out, her voice like a clear, strong bell. Chills trickle down Quinn's spine--that's how good that social outcast is.

Her eyes travel back to Finn.

Oh, hell no, Quinn thinks to herself indignantly. He is looking at Rachel like the rest of them, but he is smiling that smile. That smile is for winning games, for spending time with his mom, for being allowed to touch Quinn, and most recently, for singing. That smile is not meant for Rachel Berry.

Quinn jabs him with her elbow, glaring him in warning. Finn looks away sheepishly, nervous like a puppy that's been caught doing something naughty. Still, she's not too worried. She knows that Finn will never leave her; high school politics practically forbids it. He's the star quarterback and she's head cheerleader. Enough said. Plus, Finn's too worried about what other people think of him. Joining Glee is a big step for him, but Quinn knows he will never be brave to risk his social status completely. Singing is one thing, dating that thing is another. Finn will never go there.

Therefore, Quinn isn't jealous.

Rachel Berry is just a minor inconvenience.

With a determined smirk, she raised her hand. "Mr. Schue?" Quinn speaks up, making a conscious effort to use the teacher's nickname like everyone else.

"What's up, Quinn?" He asks.

"Now that Rachel has demonstrated how my solo is supposed to be, can I give it a try?" She asks politely. Quinn doesn't turn to see, but she knows that Rachel is fuming. It's almost reason enough to join Glee club, Quinn thinks to herself giddily.

Mr. Schuester nods. "Sure, okay, go for it."

Quinn grins, triumphant.

Who says she's jealous?

"Jumbled Up Legs" - A fun time music mix!

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 21:21:20 GMT

I made a mix with songs that are lighthearted and fun. Cute songs that you can dance to. Enjoy, everyone! :)

1. Tilly and the Wall - Jumbler
2. Tilly and the Wall - Falling Without Knowing
3. Tilly and the Wall - Dust Me Off
4. Ida Maria - I Like You So Much Better When You're Naked
5. Chairlift - Bruises
6. Vannessa Paradis - Divine Idylle (French)
7. Mika - Lollipop
8. Hall and Oates - You Make My Dreams
9. She and Him - I Was Made For You
10. Architecture in Helsinki - Heart it Races

Glee - Picspam - "Funniest moments 1x02" - SPOILER WARNING!

Wed, 16 Sep 2009 08:11:27 GMT

I know, I know. Two Glee posts in one day? Come ONNN~~NNN. But really, only two episodes are out, I'm really excited about the new episode tomorrow and about the show in general, and...and... I....I just like shiny screencaps! D: D:

Anyway!

I LOVE picspams, and ever since I learned how to make animated gifs properly, I've been ~~annoying~~ spamming with screencaps/gifs even more often. :D

"Showmance" proved that Glee can be a funny, witty show on top of having good, entertaining performances. I didn't want to make a general picspam because there were so many good moments, so I just picked my top funniest moments (to me, at least.) Enjoy!

Warning: VERY image heavy. Non-high speed internet users beware.

Sue: "You do with your depressing little group of kids what I did with my elderly, wealthy mother: euthanize it."

Sue vs Will is always great, hehe!

Rachel: "Have you ever liked somebody so much you just want to lock yourself in your room, turn on sad music, and cry?
Emma: .......No.

Poor Emma... LOL. "ALLLLLL BYYY MMMMYYYY MY-MY-MY-SELLFF...!" I have to say I understand. I mean, I have a playlist titled 'emo times,' and that's all you really need to know.

"How do you keep from... Arriving early? Whenever I grind... Cinco de mayo!"

LMAOOOOOO. Ohhh, boys.

"GET UP ON THIS!"

I have... I have no words.

Not enough? Have some fun time gifs!

Finish! WITH THAT SAID, I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE THIRD EPISODE TO AIR! :D

"Compromise" - Glee - Will/Rachel (platonic/implied)

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 15:37:53 GMT

Title: Compromise
Author: indefiance
Words: 2,332
Spoilers: Up to 'Showmance' (1x02)
Rating: PG-13
Character/Pairings: Platonic (and maybe implied) Will/Rachel
Author's Notes: This was inspired by paynesgrey, who was in turn inspired by commen_sense! Originally, I had wanted angry UST... But with the two episodes that have been out so far, that's incredibly difficult. So, I went for a middle road. This is my first Glee fic, so I'm still trying to get a feel for it. :)

One thing had always been true for Rachel Berry: when she sang, the world was silent, and it was as if the entire universe was listening.

She loved that feeling, relied on it when people threw soda in her face, mocked her, or called her names -- her most recent favorite was "manhands."

And now that feeling was going to nourish her, especially after her encounter with Mr. Schuester.

Sure, she had completely ignored Mr. Schuester's wishes and had nearly gotten the club axed, but she really was thinking about what was best for New Direction. Was it so terrible that she just wanted to be the best?

If he had wanted to simply punish her for changing the song at the assembly behind his back, he could have easily given the solo to Mercedes--or even Tina! Why did Mr. Schuester have to give Quinn the solo? The fact that Quinn was in the club was already torture enough. Didn't Mr. Schuester know that Quinn didn't have pure intentions when she joined Glee?

And that solo was what connected Finn to her in the first place…

It's not all about you.

Rachel sighed, distraught. She hadn't meant for Mr. Schuester to think that she was selfish. She was willing to be a team player, too. Well, as long as she was the lead, of course. It was just logical--she had the best voice. But to punish her by giving Quinn the lead instead was too cruel.

Rachel bit her lower lip, thinking about how Finn would forget all about her now that his girlfriend was also in Glee club.

I can't think about that now, Rachel thought to herself, turning on the microphone. I'll just prove Mr. Schuester that I'm the best for that solo. I can do this. I can do anything.

She was going to prove to Mr. Schuester that he was wrong. Rachel knew she was the best, and she was sure that the solo wasn't meant for anyone else but her.
~*~

Common sense told him that it wasn't normal to be a teacher and a janitor. At least, not for the same school.

Will grunted, pushing the table onto its side to fix a wobbly leg. He frowned when he saw underneath the table, and noted that he'd have to spend the night scraping gum, too. At least he wouldn't have to be doing this for long, now that Terri wanted him to quit being a janitor. Will was surprised that she had come around so suddenly, but he was happy that she seemed eager to compromise. She even went as far as to give up her dream house.

As happy as he was about things working out between him and Terri again, Will also felt guilty. He realized that he was being selfish and that he should treasure his wife more.

He tested the desk's leg. Still wobbly. He frowned, grumbling unhappily underneath his breath. Strange how things seemed so much more tedious when Emma wasn't around. Will had tried to forget about the situation between them all day long, but the thoughts kept niggling at the back of his mind.

Her question echoed to him: what were they doing? He really didn't know. He was scared to even think about it.

When he was around Emma, he felt like himself again. He felt like he didn't have to compromise, and it felt good that she understood his dreams. Will really didn't want to go there, but his mind had already beaten him to it: when he was with Emma, he felt free.

He shook his head, willing the thought to disappear. He reminded himself of why he was there in a janitorial suit in the first place. Terri and the baby. No matter what, he'd try and make Terri happy.

You look so dumb right now…

Will scoffed. "Tell me about it," He muttered.

Wait a minute--who said that? Or rather, who sang that?

The faint voice continued singing, and he followed it towards the auditorium, where the song grew louder and clearer.

It was Rachel; there was no doubt about it. He remembered telling her earlier that she could use the auditorium to practice. Will entered, pushing the doors as quietly as he could.

But you put on quite a show, really had me going
Now it's time to go, curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show, very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow…

Will leaned against the wall, smiling softly to himself as he listened. Rachel Berry had talent, and anybody that had ears knew it. But what she also had were drive and confidence, which were her greatest strengths, but sometimes served as her weaknesses. He was starting to see that, especially when he told her that Quinn would be taking her solo.

Oh, and the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech out…

Will studied her face as she sang, trying to see what he was hearing. There was sadness in her voice, a longing, and at times, frustration. He knew that she was upset about losing the lead to Quinn, but he never guessed that there might have been a deeper hurt.

Will hadn't meant to upset her, but it was impossible to avoid. He wanted to show her that Glee was not just Rachel Berry, it was the whole team. He wanted her to know that even if she didn't always get the leading part, she was part of a team, and she could have fun even if she wasn't in the center of attention. He didn't know how well that message carried out, but he hoped that it did.

But you put on quite a show, really had me going
Now it's time to go, curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show, very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow…

Will had become so engrossed in his thoughts that he didn't notice a mop sliding down next to him against the wall, finally making its way to the floor with a loud clang.

Rachel immediately stopped singing and looked over to where the noise was. "Who's there?" She asked apprehensively.

Feeling like he just got busted, Will raised an arm up and awkwardly waved. "Sorry, it's just me."

Rachel's eyes focused on him in the dim lighting of the auditorium. "Oh, Mr. Schuester." Rachel acknowledged him coolly. Will didn't fail to notice the thinly veiled anger in her voice. "What are you doing here--Are you wearing a janitor's uniform?"

Will nodded, mentally kicking himself for being discovered. He had wanted to keep his night job as a secret. "Yeah, I sometimes like to double up as a janitor," He joked.

Rachel nodded, not asking any questions. Will was happy about that, but the silence that followed was awkward.

"Well, my wife and I are expecting a baby, a boy actually, so I figured I could use the extra money," He explained further, trying to fill the heavy silence. "But not for long…" He trailed off, feeling stupid for even trying to explain in the first place.

"I see. Congratulations on the baby, Mr. Schuester." Several seconds ticked by uncomfortably. "Well, I guess I'll be going then," Rachel said curtly, picking up her pink rolling backpack.

"Ah…Rachel," Will said, walking up the stage and towards her, "Listen, I meant what I said
earlier. You know, about wanting you--wanting everyone--to have fun?"

She gave him a small smile and nodded. "I know, Mr. Schuester." It was hard to stay mad at Mr. Schuester sometimes. He was a genuinely nice man.

"And I also meant it when I said I knew how much you cared about Glee club." He continued.

She nodded again, looking downwards. "I do, Mr. Schuester. I-I just wanted people to think that the club was cool, you know? I wanted people to feel like the club was cool enough to join. I--" Her voice was cracking. Stupid emotions. Her emotions were always at an all-time high after singing.

Seeing her distress, Wiill put a hand on her shoulder. "I know. I understood what you did, Rachel," He said, rubbing her shoulders gently. He could feel her warmth through the fabric of her blouse. "I pushed you kids into going behind my back because I hadn't been willing to compromise."

"No, no. When I refused to sing without an equally good partner, you found Will for me--I mean, for the club." Rachel sniffed. She really had to put a stop to that leaky faucet. Any minute now and the tears were going to flow. "It was me that wasn't willing to compromise. Mr. Schuester, I'm sorry for lying to you." She looked up at him, apologetic. "I embarrassed you in front of the whole school."

Without realizing it, Will had moved closer to her.

"I don't want you to think that I'm some diva," Rachel said, her voice quavered. "I care about Glee, and I want to do what's best for it."

"I know that--"

"I just don't think that having Quinn in the club is what's best for us!" Rachel finished hotly.

Will sighed. "Look, I know how upset you are that I gave Quinn the solo--"

"That's not it!" Rachel protested, peering up at him with moistened eyes. She sighed gently, and Will realized that he was close enough to feel her warm breath on his face. "Well, I am upset by that, since it is my solo, but that's not the only reason, Mr. Schuester. Quinn is a cheerio, and she's in the club for one thing and one thing only."

She took a deep breath. "Quinn is trying to ruin Glee club."

"I don't think that's why she's in Glee club, Rachel," Will said, "I'm sure you know that she and Finn are a couple, and she has told me that she joined to support him."

A pained look flashed across Rachel's face, and Will didn't fail to notice it. "Is there something else going on that I don't know about?"

Rachel shook her head, looking away. "N-no. Nothing."

"Rachel," Will said firmly. She shivered at the way he said her name, though she didn't know why. Well, Mr. Schuester did have a nice voice, Rachel reasoned to herself. "You know that we need more members in our club, and when Quinn joined she added three."

"I understand that, but why the cheerios?" She asked exasperatedly. The cheerleaders had their own thing, and Rachel had finally found her haven in high school at last. Glee club was her chance to shine in school.

Will smiled, lowering his head to hers until their foreheads barely touched. "Just give them a try, Rachel. I promise you that everything will turn out okay. It will be fun."

Rachel sighed, leaning in closer. She felt a few tears make their way down her cheeks. Of course, Mr. Schuester could never know why she was really hurting. It wasn't just that Cheerios had joined Glee club. Quinn joined. Finn's girlfriend. Rachel might as well pretend that the kiss between her and Finn never existed at all.

"Hey…Hey, are you alright?" Will asked softly, brushing her tears away with his thumb.

"Yes, I'm alright…No, no, I'm not." Rachel took a deep breath, ready to confess. "Mr. Schuester, I like Finn, and that solo was my chance to connect with him. Now that Quinn is here…"

Will sighed, taking the crying girl into his arms. "I see. So that's what's going on." He rubbed her back gently, soothing her as she cried into his shoulder. "I can't pretend that I know how you feel, but I do know that you are hurt. However, I'm not going to kick Quinn out of the club just because you want to be alone with Finn."

"I know…I know that." She buried her face into his shoulder, embarrassed that she actually told a teacher her secret crush. Still, the comfort of his embrace made her feel better. This felt different. Being held by Finn was exciting and thrilling. Mr. Schuester was warm and safe. She didn't know why she was even comparing the two. "I'll get over it, just give me time."

"Of course, just as long as--"

"--As long as I don't rip out her hair and claw out her eyes, right?" Rachel asked, wiping her tears.

Will laughed. "Right."

"I know. I'm an honorable person, Mr. Schuester." Rachel said; her voice was gaining back confidence. "I'll play fair. I may not be the star every single time, you're right about that, but that doesn't mean I can't stop trying for those solos, right?"

"I guess you're right," Will said, chuckling.

"You'll see, Mr. Schuester, I can be a team player, too." Rachel said, moving away from Will to gather up the rest of her things. Then, she hugged Mr. Schuester tightly, ignoring the mysterious feelings that were bubbling up in her stomach. "Thank you," she whispered in his ear.

"For what?" He asked.

"For believing in me and not kicking me out of the club even though I planned a coup against you." She said. "And for coming back to Glee club. New Direction wouldn't have existed without you."

He smiled, still holding Rachel in his arms.

"And for making me feel better." She said, giving him a big smile.

"Well, I'm glad you're going to give Quinn and her friends a chance," Will said.

Rachel nodded, hopping down the stage, ready to go home. "I will, Mr. Schuester. I just hope they're in Glee club to do the same."

"Wait up, Rachel!" He called out just before she left. "It's late, I'll walk you out."

Will dashed down the steps and grabbed the handle to her backpack. Their fingers brushed slightly.

Rachel smiled up at him. "Thank you, Mr. Schuester. You're very chivalrous, too."

He gave her a quizzical look, but didn't ask any questions. As a teacher, Will had learned a long time ago that sometimes it was better not to ask.

I'm only on the first episode and I already ship everyone.

Tue, 08 Sep 2009 10:23:37 GMT

Seriously. Even Gwen/everyone. I normally hate Gwen, but she's alright on this one so far. Her interactions with Merlin are very cute.

Um, first impressions behind the cut. Um. Yes, very picture heavy. Very... incoherent.

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I know, I know. Some of you are thinking, "But Wendy, it's too soon for picspams and declarations of love!" True. However, I think I'm going to be picspamming about the show for awhile.

Okay, onto first impressions!

At first, I thought I would be bothered by how much the show deviated from the original legend. I mean, I talk about Arthurian legend enough that Michael tried to guess what was going to happen next (i.e., "I know! Uther will have sex with that evil witch lady, THEN give birth to Arthur!"), and I finally had to tell him to shut it because I had no idea what was going to happen on the show.

First of all, I think Colin Morgan plays an adorable Merlin. That mop of hair, those ears? LOL. He's adorkable, I would say. And it seems as though he has already embraced magic--would rather die than not be able to use magic, in fact. Fascinating. I'm glad I didn't get to hear any of that, "Nooo! I'm different! I'M A MONSTERRR. THIS IS NOT MY DESTINY!" crap. I was a little afraid of that.

LOL. Well, he did tell the dragon (omg, the dragon looked like a cute little baby one...) that he'd rather help kill Arthur than save him, but... Well, we all know that will change very soon. They've already got the gay!sex tension going. ;D

That's where it started to remind me a bit of Smallville. Clark and Jor-El anyone? LOL. CLARK AND LEX? XDDD Anyhoo....

Anthony Head makes a convincing Uther, even though I always imagined Uther to be a little bit younger. It's interesting that he does not want magic in the kingdom, as here, it already sets up the conflict between him and Morgana.

Bradley James = perfect Arthur. The characterization of Arthur here is one that I really like. He's an egotistic and overly confident prince who already has a saving complex, according to Gwen. And I wonder! She does know quite a bit about his personality, doesn't she? I mean, for being a maidservant...

Speaking of which... I can't quite wrap my head around the whole GWEN=MAIDSERVANT part yet. I just can't. She was a little awkward, but not annoying, unlike her other incarnations. I am only on episode one... As you can see, Gwen has a huge mountain to climb over in order to impress me, since I normally hate her character.

I think that it's funny (in a foreshadowing way) that she tells Merlin she prefers 'ordinary' men, even though those that are familar with the legends KNOW that she ends up with the KING, and she has an affair with his knight. Definitely not ordinary men. And Merlin is not ordinary, either.

BUT THE CHARACTER THAT I KNOW I WILL BE IN LOVE WITH FOR THE REST OF THE SERIES IS MORGANA. LOL. How could I not be? I mean, IT'S MORGAN LE FAY. I love her in ANYTHING. ANYTHING! And in this one, she is the HBIC. I loved that she spoke her mind to Uther about him killing innocent people, and she was right: he would make more enemies that way. He certainly made one during this episode.

And the looks that both Merlin and Arthur gave her was enough to send my little shipper heart into a seizure. SOOO CUTE.

Okay, enough of the incoherent mess, lol. Have more cute gifs:

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P.S. Feel free to take the animated gifs and use wherever and whenever and for whatever. That goes for the screencaps, too.

You Are the Only Thing: Clark/Chloe/Davis

Thu, 18 Jun 2009 06:28:28 GMT

I finally got around to doing another fanmix! I was asking myself if I should do another Chlark mix or just a Chloe mix, but I realized that it would be such a waste if I didn't do at least one on one of the most interesting (at least, in my opinion) triangles of Smallville. Clark who's trying to save Chloe who's trying to save Davis. Who doesn't love a good angsty triangle once in awhile? I know, I know. On Smallville, that's like a staple, but hey, it gave me some of the best Chlark moments of the season! :D

I didn't want this mix to be too long, so I purposely tried to find songs that could either be applied to the Chlark relationship or the Chlavis relationship. It's up to you to interpret whether which song applies more to which relationship. So, enjoy and please leave a comment if you're taking any songs!

And a special one for Davis (since Sam Witwer won't be coming back, bawwww ;~;):

1. Chris Levy - What You Feel

I picked this song because of how emotional it made the Chlavis/Chlark scenes in 'Beast.' And also because it reflects the duality of my fanmix. This song played for Davis and Chloe in the beginning (her "romantic" nightmare), and at the end when Chloe tells Clark that she's leaving.

2. Bruce Springstein - I'm On Fire

Hey little girl is your daddy home
Did he go away and leave you all alone
I got a bad desire
I'm on fire

Tell me now baby is he good to you
Can he do to you the things that I do
I can take you higher
I'm on fire

Sometimes it's like someone took a knife baby
Edgy and dull and cut a six-inch valley
Through the middle of my soul

At night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet
And a freight train running through the middle of my head
Only you can cool my desire
I'm on fire

3. HIM - Wicked Game

The world was on fire, no-one could save me but you
It's strange what desire will make foolish people do
I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you
And I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you.

What a wicked game to play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way
What a wicked thing you do
To make me dream of you.

4. Paramore - Decode

How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
Can't win your losing fight all the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
You wont take away my pride
No not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know how

The truth is hiding in your eyes
And its hanging on your tongue
Just boiling in my blood,
But you think that I can't see
What kind of man that you are
If you're a man at all
Well, I will figure this one out on my own
(I'm screaming "I love you so..." But my thoughts you can't decode)

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know how

Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves
Do you see what we've done?
We're gonna make such fools of ourselves

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I use to know you so well

I think I know
I think I know
There is something that I see in you
It might kill me I want it to be true

5. Sia - Breathe Me

Ouch, I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

6. Snow Patrol (feat. Martha Wainwright) - Set the Fire to the Third Bar

I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold ground
I, I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms.

7. Vast - Flames

Close your eyes
Let me touch you now
Let me give you something that is real
Close the door
Leave your fears behind
Let me give you what you're giving me
You are the only thing
That makes me want to live at all
When i am with you
There's no reason to pretend
That when i am with you i feel flames again
Just put me inside you
I would never ever leave
Just put me inside you
I would never ever leave you

Bonus track:

8. Vast - Temptation

I stand alone now I stand alone
But can you save me from myself

You are my temptation
You are my temptation to
Do what I knew was wrong.

Please let me know if you want the zip. :)

Bleach Flashfic!

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 05:28:07 GMT

Title: The Perks of Being A Villain
Author: indefiance
Recipient: luminamon ♥
Characters: Orihime.
Genre: drama/woeness angsting! D:
Rating: PG at the most.
Notes: this is my first time writing Orihime, and hopefully I didn't fail too bad. ^_^;

It felt strange to Orihime, being evil.

First, it was a little boring, to tell you the truth. She had nothing to do here, except to heal wounds that she had already healed days before. When she wasn’t needed, she waited. The four alabaster walls formed a spacious enough room, but even so, it was just a little difficult to breathe. Especially on the nights when she couldn’t sleep and would wake up in total choking darkness. Another truth? Orihime missed her room, as little as it was. It was her own. At least there, she did not wake up every night in fear. She did not wake up every morning to blood and wounds.

Secondly, it didn’t feel very different. Perhaps that was what made it so strange. Orihime had expected to change somehow, though if you asked her, she wouldn’t know how. Once, alone in her boredom and thoughts, she let out a ridiculous laugh. It was meant to be an evil laughter; she had heard it in so many movies. But all that came out was something broken , and she wasn’t sure if it qualified as a laugh, much less an evil one.

It felt strange to Orhime, laughing. At least here it felt strange.

And third of all, it felt incredibly lonely. The window that she was allowed to look out of showed nothing, and Orihime was beginning to feel very afraid that it was because there was nothing left to look for anymore. This was to be her home now, and this was her side. She had chosen it, even though it sure didn’t feel as if she belonged here.

So was this what being evil was like? Orihime was beginning to feel very sorry for the espada, for aizen-sama, for everyone here in Hueco Mundo. For power or whatever cruel goal they had, they must have sacrificed something important too. They must be terribly lonely as well.

What was worse was missing everyone and wanting very much to be with them. But of course she couldn’t; that would be selfish. If she returned, Ulquiorra would not hesitate to keep his word and kill them. She just wished she could have said goodbye to everyone and to apologize.

Yes, she had said goodbye to her important person, but wished very hard that she could have said goodbye to at least one more. But she knew. If she had said goodbye to Tatsuki-chan, Orihime would have never had the courage to leave.

“Tatsuki-chan…” She whispered, clutching the fabric of her dress tightly. “I’m so sorry.”

Orihime wiped absent-mindedly at the little spot of moisture on her lap, making the whiteness of her dress gray just a little.

Orihime missed making jelly-filled sushi and the look of joy (at least, she thought it was joy) on Tatsuki’s face as she ate them.

Maybe if everything worked out, somehow, she could cook a really big feast for everyone! Orihime smiled at the thought, humming as she thought about all the delicious foods she could prepare.

She missed training with Rukia, they were just barely starting to know each other, and Orihime could see just how she made such a huge impact on Ichigo’s life. The shinigami was so full of strength and so confident. Rukia wouldn’t be here. She would have been stronger than that. Orihime was sure of that.

She missed Ishida, Chad, everyone, even the group of shinigami that she had just barely gotten to know.

Most of all…

Orihime breathed in deeply, focusing on the single scent and spiritual energy that she knew best. He was not getting any closer. It would be impossible to penetrate Las Noches and even if he—or they—could, Orihime shuddered to think what would happen to them here.

But knowing that they were—he was—coming for her, as disgusting as it sounded, made her feel a little less lonely. A little less trapped.

“Do you really think she belongs here, Ichigo?” She had asked him when Rukia had mysteriously disappeared.

The look on his face, so determined and strong, told her that he believed with all of his soul that Rukia did indeed belong in his world.

“Do I…” Orihime leaned her head against the clear windowpane. “…Belong in your world too?”

“Woman,” a quiet voice interrupted her thoughts.

She turned around to face the melancholy Ulquiorra. His face was a picture of sadness, perfectly theatrical and complete with blue inky lines down his face to resemble tears. But Orihime knew that the arrancar was cold and unfeeling. Still, he had been gracious enough to allow her a grace period.

“How long have you been standing there?” Orihime asked him, standing to her feet, and smoothing her dress and sleeves.

“We have need of you, woman.” He simply said, ignoring her question altogether.

Orihime immediately followed him out the door, but not with the same panic and uncertainty that she first had. “Who is it? What happened this time?”

It was getting surprisingly easier to navigate through the bleakness of this world.

He abruptly turned around, the edges of his arrancar outfit fluttering in a pure contrast of white against black.

She also stopped, realizing the mistake of her question. How urgent she must have sounded. How utterly foolish. It was only when there were wounds to heal that she got to know the progress of her friends, all of whom were coming with the sole purpose of rescuing her. She didn’t know whether to feel grateful for them or utter despair.

“Do not think that your ryoka friends will succeed in coming here,” Ulquiorra scathingly warned. “They are already at their limit.”

Orihime felt her throat constrict, heart pounding wildly, and she was surprised she found the strength to ask him what he needed of her then, even when her head was screaming, where are they? How are they?

“Your powers do far more than just heal flesh and scars,” he answered, continuing to lead the way.

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